“You’re not required to save the world with your creativity. Your art not only doesn’t have to be original, in other words, it also doesn’t have to be important. For example, whenever anyone tells me that they want to write a book in order to help other people I always think ‘Oh, please don’t. Please don’t try to help me.’ I mean it’s very kind of you to help people, but please don’t make it your sole creative motive because we will feel the weight of your heavy intention, and it will put a strain upon our souls.”Elizabeth Gilbert, Big Magic; Creative Living Beyond Fear
I am creative and happy and I know it. I measured my worth by my consistency to write on daily basis, and I am glad to tell you that I am posting 25 days in a row on the blog Y’all :D. The goal of my writing? none other my own pleasure. I don’t expect my writing will change the world nor will help humankind, nor will earn a shining million-dollar publication, nor will be compared to Amanda Gorman Poem, no… I am happy when I create something. I am happy when I write this blog and remind myself, I am good enough, I am worthy and who do I expect to tell all those sweet uplifting words for me other than me?
I write because I want to co-create with the universe to make art. I write so I don’t have to think about paying bills or debt for 20-15 minutes a day. I write to clear my mind, it really amazes me how weird that when I am doing something else, I suddenly have this idea about what to write next, but when I actually sit to write, nothing comes. I write because it gives me a sense of satisfaction. I write just because I like it. And what if others don’t appreciate my writings?// so? it’s not my problem. And what if others told me that my writings are so bad that I should not continue to write a blog?// It’s okay too. I will politely ask them to make their own f***ing writing.
Lo and behold, I will say adamantly, unapologetic, and proudly, that I am a writer. I write smoothly not in one language, but in two, well three if I could manage time to improve my french :P; I could write swiftly in Bahasa Indonesian ( I am a native) and in English. I called myself a writer not because I expecting wealth from my writing, I actually expect health, because I believe it’s healthy to write whatever I want. I also decidedly to be a writer because I want to know myself better. I would like to open a communication vessel with my inner voice. By my writings, I also wish to record my life, the unavoidable change, the growth, the self-love, the compassion, the lessons, the gratitude, and everything in between that colored my life in so many ways.