Dear survivor from an abusive household, you are amazingly strong.I don't know at what stage you're currently. Maybe you're still fighting for your legal single status at the courthouse,Or maybe you're still figuring out what you are going to do now,Perhaps today is that day when it hits you hard that you don't want to … Continue reading Survivor
Package
I am extremely lucky! But let me tell you this, it's a very new way of thinking for me. I wasn't born thinking I was so blessed and privileged. No.. I was a skinny tall girl who was thinking that everyone else was lucky but me. Everyone else had something that I didn't. And that's … Continue reading Package
The past
Ow, hello past wound, It's not nice to see you again, But if I must chat with you, so be it. And it's not surprising that you're still using the same threats and bitter words, the decade passed you by and you still stuck at the same rotten point in your life.I even notice you're … Continue reading The past
A book
If I write a book... No... When I write a book, it will be about me. About what part of me to be specific? That's the question I'm toying with nowadays. I write.. in this blog... Mostly to channeling my emotions et al. But a post in LinkedIn sparks this idea inside me. You want … Continue reading A book
Ashes
How do you know that you have healed? It is that undisturbed calm in your mind, even though you are face-to-face to the very thing that cut you bleed open decades ago. The fire that used to burn you hot, put you on sleepless nights, endless tears, now that fire has burned the old you … Continue reading Ashes
I am good
I have a healthy body, this is my way to remind myself that I have something good right here, right now. I can run 7 kilometers with hilly terrain, and I can have the time and place to rest properly. This means I have the time and chance to train my body. I choose to … Continue reading I am good
Deeper
So today, I know myself a little bit deeper. I now understand my motivation, my deepest fear, and my tendency to yearn for something that is not mine yet and also forgetting those I already have. For this tendency, it's really surprising because I know I do that "yearning" the missing part all the time … Continue reading Deeper
Lemons
Hello lemons, it's been sometime since the last time life gave me a basket full of lemons. And today I received the basket again. So... I will sit with these emotions for a while. I don't have the solutions yet but they will arrive sooner or later. I refuse to host the long drama in … Continue reading Lemons
Weltanschauung
The book is altering my Weltanschauung ( world view). Probably the only history book that made me cry. After reading this book, I see Ompung Si Singamangaraja differently. I admire him completely. The title fits perfectly. Ahu si Singamangaraja, means I am Si Singamangaraja. The last words he said in his final moment before the … Continue reading Weltanschauung
A Fixer
I am used to be a 'fixer' at home and literally almost everywhere. Oftentimes, to the point where I walked all day with no energy left. I feel like I automatically have to smooth things out... If there's friction between my colleagues, I become that "friend" who brings everyone together, even just for a good … Continue reading A Fixer
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