Have you ever feel you are so angry and the person to whom your anger pointed to…. is also the same person that you love so much? These two emotions are those who are never timidly show their boldness, I don’t know how to handle it. I feel very overwhelmed with my feelings and all I want to do is cry…
I tried to meditate this afternoon, I try to soften the anger at the very least, since it’s really tiresome to carry it for days… It’s been 3 days already and I’m exhausted. The meditation did make me thinking about what fear underlies my anger… And I think… I am afraid to being taken advantage of.
I hear the meditation guru ask me to detach from my anger, to see it, allow it, give it some space, examine it with curiosity, but not identify with it … I hear it, I could typed it perfectly and I don’t know how to do that, I don’t understand what it means….
At the end of the session, I still feel angry…. But not raging angry… It’s more like a sad angry… I don’t even know what I’m talking about. .. that’s that for tonight.
Stay in love, cheers,