I am used to be a 'fixer' at home and literally almost everywhere. Oftentimes, to the point where I walked all day with no energy left. I feel like I automatically have to smooth things out... If there's friction between my colleagues, I become that "friend" who brings everyone together, even just for a good … Continue reading A Fixer
mental health
Sunlight
Plenty of sunlight today in my town.. Sunlight is healing yes? And we have adapted well to receive all the goodness of sunlight. 😌😌. I remember growing up in a small village with also plenty of sunlight. From time to time when the heat is so severe, the asphalt road looks wavy. Why am I … Continue reading Sunlight
Privilege
It's been some time since the last time I sat here on my front porch and typing on this blog. Today is Saturday and there's no schedule to go anywhere, I'm happily at home and sit on the verandah. I'm thinking about privilege now. I used to think I'm not having a 'privileged' life, no … Continue reading Privilege
Letting go
Boundaries
I am not responsible for someone else’s chaos.I am not a fixer, a shield, or a scapegoat.I offer help when it’s welcomed — and step back when it’s not.I can be kind without abandoning myself.I do not owe my energy to dysfunction.I do not make myself smaller for someone else’s control.I am allowed to say … Continue reading Boundaries
Accumulation
I don't want to accumulate things anymore.Clothes? My wardrobe is proof enough—full beyond reason.Shoes? Three pairs for running, three for casual days, two for formality.Bags? More than I need. Enough is enough.This year, I am shedding.A quiet moratorium on shopping feels right.It aligns with the word I’ve chosen to guide me: peace. I feel lighter … Continue reading Accumulation
Dear self,
You will breathe life into whatever you focus on Dear self, I know the mood’s been low— add the bad weather to the mix, the extreme heat, You keep counting bad apples,as if the rot outweighs the orchard.Lately, you forget the quiet good. You forget: your legs still carry you at dawn, running 45 minutes … Continue reading Dear self,
The Tao of Self-Confidence
I spent this weekend reading this book and it's a weekend well spent! Ms.Chan shares her rough journey to forge a path for her own life. A different path from what her family, her relatives, and her culture expect from her. Her story is pretty much relatable to me. In many Asian cultures, a woman … Continue reading The Tao of Self-Confidence
Revolt
Once, when I was a kid, I wondered what happened after we turned off the TV. Where did the small people go? What did they do until morning, when they had to perform again? I was a kid—I said it. But now, the question is different: What do we do when the performances never stop? … Continue reading Revolt
A monologue
(Lights up. A lone figure, mid-thirties maybe, sits at a table, phone in hand. She sighs, puts the phone down, and starts talking—not to anyone in particular. Maybe to herself. Maybe to us.) You know, today... I write just to stop myself from scrolling.Insta-land. Meta-land. Scroll-ville. Whatever we’re calling it now.I’m trying to escape it, … Continue reading A monologue
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