Dear girl, you've grown up. Too soon for my liking. But I can't fight time, no one can. It's weird our life, yes? You came through me, beautifully perfect, musical prodigy, terrifyingly smart. But 8 years ago, I was not allowed to be your mother again. Dear girl, you've grown up. I forgive the past, … Continue reading Sixteen
Changing
I lost it, I don't have that 'unconditional' trust anymore to anyone even to those who I vowed to be the dearest to me. And it's a good feeling to realize that I've grown, I've changed. For so long I gave my trust to others, so they can decide what's best for me, they can … Continue reading Changing
Love day
We celebrate our day today. Not a fancy celebration, no dining out, no cakes, no presents, just a simple "happy love day darling", in the morning. On this day, some years ago, love chose us. We were full of scars from our previous relationships, still are .. and perhaps we will forever be in our … Continue reading Love day
Problems
I'm good with problems now .. not because my problems are so tiny, so it's easy to manage; I'm on good terms with problems because I know now that problems will be close by, as long as I live, and I need to accept that. I don't mind these long strings of problems. It's true … Continue reading Problems
Ms. Cassie
The more a subject matters to you, the harder it is to find a story you want to tell about it. Domestic abuse is a very close matter to me, I myself is and will forever be in a healing journey from the bitter past. Today I read an article about Ms. Cassie and P … Continue reading Ms. Cassie
Quiet
I used to worry whenever my life seemed quiet. I keep looking at far away, to check whether a storm is coming to my life. Not because I'm only happy when it rains... (Don't read it .. sing it! 😁😁) but because I'm so used with it. So when it is calm and sunny, I … Continue reading Quiet
Dreamful
Now I get it, the saying goes: you can do anything but you can't do everything. Most of the time, I want to do everything, I want to be everything for everyone, no wonder I disappoint all the time. I used to have this many 'want(s)'; I want to be a good mother, I want … Continue reading Dreamful
Strength
Last week, I had my very first trail run, 25k. This pic was taken around 12-ish kilometers and I was still smiley and full of confidence. About an hour later, I was lost in the middle of the mount leuser jungle, and I was crawling up and down the steepest hill and slope, holding roots … Continue reading Strength
Curiosity
I'm having that "curiosity kill the cat" moment. I'm curious about something or someone but then I also know if I look up for them, I will re-open the old chapter, I will cause unnecessary pain upon my mind and my heart. My heart surely tells me that these toxic people are still ... Toxic … Continue reading Curiosity
Unapologetic
One day I was just so fed up with every negative thought in my own head, so I just said: I'm done okay... I'm done worrying about everything at any given time. I am not doing this anymore. So what if I have a lot of debts? So what if I failed my first marriage, … Continue reading Unapologetic
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