Day 2, bed resting, it’s not a familiar feeling, to let the world move without you, funny right? I always think I already let go of all the wants to control, the FOMO feelings, but on the 2nd day of my sick leave, I still want to check my work email, boff. Amazing.

I have been making a note about myself since yesterday. The date, the hour, the symptoms, what medicine I took, my body temp and how I feel. I don’t know why I decided to do that but I guess I want to see the progress clearly… I can’t rely solely on my memory… Those data will evaporate asap.

I feel particularly lucky actually because when I’m facing this sickness, I am no longer alone and confused to hold everything intact even though I myself am ill. I thought that I must be able to take care of everyone, except myself. My pain was mine alone, not to be shared, but everyone’s pain was my responsibility. Oh, I hope you will never have to go to that place my dearest reader…. It’s heavy, very heavy.

I am still learning, to trust that it’s okay for every human being around me when I take a bed rest for three days. The sky will not fall.

May all of us can heal in their resting time….

Karin Sabrina