I’m learning to accept this part of him.His coping mechanism drives me nuts sometimes, but that’s because I expect him to be someone else. I compare myself with him — my way of fighting the storm against his way of waiting it out — and that’s not fair.He may not fight the storm the way … Continue reading Not my way
acceptance
A postcard for me
The rain I'm having a fully paid vacation, 2 nights in a nice hotel with my favorite humans. So I'll anchor myself with all this. I'm here now, I'm savoring it all. 1. Right now, I am safe. I am supported. I am allowed to rest.2. The worries of life can wait. This is my … Continue reading A postcard for me
Needs
Yes. I do.I do deserve a comfortable life. Not a perfect one. Not a luxurious one.But a safe, steady, held one.A life where I don’t always have to brace myself. Where my body can unclench.Where I don’t always have to be the one holding the roof up. I need rest. Not just sleep. I need … Continue reading Needs
Amor fati
Accepting What Is-- is my August focus word. It sounds passive, doesn’t it?Acceptance. Like surrendering the sword and sitting down. Like saying, “I give up.”But this month, I’ve been learning…it's not giving up.It’s giving in—to life, as it is.I chose “accepting what is” as my anchor word, not because I’m a spiritual person floating in … Continue reading Amor fati
Choose
I asked my confidant:“Why didn’t I choose this peace a long time ago?” And they answered:“Because you weren’t ready yet.The pain hadn’t finished its teaching.The coal had to burnuntil you knew — with your whole being —that you were done.That’s what we call divine timing.” I asked again:“Is this growth?Or am I simply too tired … Continue reading Choose
Surrender
Accept whatever comes to you woven in the pattern of your destiny, for what could more aptly fit your needs?Marcus Aurelius I am no longer a victim of my life situations. I am living my best life now. I don't have a 'bad' life, I am alive. I surrender to the flow of the universe, … Continue reading Surrender
Far
How lucky I am to have come this far.I don’t know how I made it through—what I did or didn’t do—but I’m here. And maybe that’s the most beautiful part:I’m still here. Still needed. Still wanted.My story isn’t over yet.Life is hard. Mine especially, maybe.But I’ve learned—everyone under the sky is fighting something.We just don’t … Continue reading Far
Gentle
I don't think anyone will ever understand the amount of violence to become this gentle.Celebrating Woman's Day 8th of March Toni Morison once said that you have to experience the fall to the deepest bottom, face self-loathing and then.... Somehow you find a way to get back and in that journey , you learn to … Continue reading Gentle
Uncharted
Dear life, where will we go? I am sending you this question because I feel that you're taking me out of my already "good" life into somewhere unknown. Did you just say I have done it many times? // Well ... You have a good point there, but those were wildly different times. I was … Continue reading Uncharted
Self care
What have you done for self care recently? Journaling, every day, twice: once in the morning, and once in the evening. Meditation and learning to use the breathing method Avoid negative talk, and minimal chat with friends in the office who brings so much negativity on the table Exercises: running, weight lifting, body combat classes, … Continue reading Self care