I am following the eight weeks of PB 10K running program from the Gerak app ; Gerak (Indonesian language) means move in English. So in this program each day I have an assignment to do, whether it's easy running 25 minutes, or long running of 50 minutes, or stride practicing or rest. Lately I've been … Continue reading Rest
Life
Learn
Do we really have to be crushed with a severe heart broken, then... And only then, we're open for new lessons ? Karin
Changing
I lost it, I don't have that 'unconditional' trust anymore to anyone even to those who I vowed to be the dearest to me. And it's a good feeling to realize that I've grown, I've changed. For so long I gave my trust to others, so they can decide what's best for me, they can … Continue reading Changing
Problems
I'm good with problems now .. not because my problems are so tiny, so it's easy to manage; I'm on good terms with problems because I know now that problems will be close by, as long as I live, and I need to accept that. I don't mind these long strings of problems. It's true … Continue reading Problems
Quiet
I used to worry whenever my life seemed quiet. I keep looking at far away, to check whether a storm is coming to my life. Not because I'm only happy when it rains... (Don't read it .. sing it! 😁😁) but because I'm so used with it. So when it is calm and sunny, I … Continue reading Quiet
Strength
Last week, I had my very first trail run, 25k. This pic was taken around 12-ish kilometers and I was still smiley and full of confidence. About an hour later, I was lost in the middle of the mount leuser jungle, and I was crawling up and down the steepest hill and slope, holding roots … Continue reading Strength
Curiosity
I'm having that "curiosity kill the cat" moment. I'm curious about something or someone but then I also know if I look up for them, I will re-open the old chapter, I will cause unnecessary pain upon my mind and my heart. My heart surely tells me that these toxic people are still ... Toxic … Continue reading Curiosity
Unapologetic
One day I was just so fed up with every negative thought in my own head, so I just said: I'm done okay... I'm done worrying about everything at any given time. I am not doing this anymore. So what if I have a lot of debts? So what if I failed my first marriage, … Continue reading Unapologetic
Today
Hello Ms Ashworth, You have no idea of who I am but I could confirm that you saved me many times... In a weird logarithmic way... Every time I felt the day was dark, your poem somehow found me, and when I read it, it seemed like you spoke to me directly about whatever problem … Continue reading Today
Room
Yep, I'm building a bigger room for me. A spacious room for forgiveness, I forgive myself for all the decisions that felt so utterly wrong. Of course I feel the grief, but that's because I'm human, and there's nothing wrong with being hurt and disappointed.. but I am no longer a victim of anyone's wrong … Continue reading Room
