Today I’m making a very important decision:
I’ll start over whenever I see fit.

More often than not, I find myself needing to forgive myself again.
I used to think forgiveness was something you do once and it’s done. One clean break with the past. I was wrong.

Every inch of growth, every new understanding, requires me to forgive who I once was.
That version of me didn’t know better. But now that I do, I try to do better.

After I forgive myself, only then can I truly forgive others.
Though I’ll be honest—my forgiveness isn’t for everything. There are wounds and moments that only God can reach. But the struggle, day in and day out, is within me. The “shoulda-woulda” thoughts creep in. They visit me in quiet hours. I forget that I’ve already let go of certain things. Or I thought I had.

So, I forgive myself again.
And again.
And again.

There’s this concept I love from Eckhart Tolle:
We can always cope with the present moment—but not the future, and certainly not the regrets of the past.
The only real moment is now. The past and future are shadows of this moment, just like the moon has no light of its own but borrows from the sun.

I can’t fully explain how much that idea has soothed me.
Seriously—my monkey mind, which runs wild on memory and anticipation, has finally been tamed a little by those words.

So here I am.
I forgive myself. And I will continue to grant myself forgiveness whenever I need it.

And what happens right after that forgiveness?

Peace.
One long exhale — like I’ve just let go of the weight of everything.
And then, a quiet realization: I don’t get upset as easily when things don’t go my way.
I have more space. Space to think, to feel, to be.
Wider space inside me where I can breathe, respond, live.

That space — that breath — that’s grace.
And I’m learning to give it to myself.

To you my dearest readers, I share this in the hope that if you too are carrying something heavy, you might find peace in letting go — even just one breath at a time. That brief moment of peace will lead us to a wider, comfortable space.

Karin Sabrina