Familiarity can kill, I wish I knew that much earlier. I don’t know why we often choose the familiar chaos rather than going straight to the uncharted path of happiness and calm. When I decided to leave the familiar hell and started to crawl to the unknown, I was, very afraid. But I did it because I’ll die if I stay and I choose to die while I walk into the unknown- I think it’s more noble… at least I die trying.

When I finally found a new land, My firsthand experiences with turmoil and hurt for more than a decade created a high wall around me, the wall is to protect me, I know this wall very well, and I respect the sanctuary it brings for me. I used to run to this sanctuary and hide here whenever I wanted.

But to keep up this wall is hard work, and now I don’t hide anymore. I open the door wide, so I can see the whole landscape well. Now I even plan for a wall renovation, I will cut it down, but the wall will not go entirely, it will still be there, I need boundaries.

To live in private is not an easy task in this “sharing everything” era. But I am determined to do so. Private but still have real friends, private but still share good vibes, private and respect others’ privacy as well. My wall will always be there, I am safe and loved.

Cheers,

Karin Sabrina