The more a subject matters to you, the harder it is to find a story you want to tell about it.

Domestic abuse is a very close matter to me, I myself is and will forever be in a healing journey from the bitter past. Today I read an article about Ms. Cassie and P Diddy.. and my heart bleeds again. I don’t and never understand how a human can be so awfully cruel to other humans… Especially in domestic settings.

Inhale … Exhale…woozaaaahh…  This subject is very hard to write down… It’s difficult because I don’t want to remember that time again, but I also wish to bring forth this important matter. In my opinion, domestic abuse is the most underrated abuse. The victims are abused daily, at their home, and rarely other family members or friends or even neighbors will step in to help or even inquire about the victims’ well being.

If the abuser is wealthy ( by a very subjective standard) then the victim will have a double burden, their stories are regarded as “irrational” and most people will turn a blind eye and a deaf ear toward the abuse. Some even dare to say to the victim: you are just not grateful enough… You have everything now, why bother with small things? – yes … A person actually said that to me, almost a decade ago-.

Inhale ..Exhale…  I am in a good place now, and I know I am very lucky to be at this point in my life. I am also a very different person now… I found that peace in life comes with a lot of good bye. I say goodbye to many expectations the society put on me. I no longer do “yes” just to please anyone else but me, currently I’m doing my best to disappoint everyone else but me. I put myself first now and I’m still learning to not feel guilty about it.

My heart goes to Ms Cassie, and to all who experience this… You are not alone, please try to ask for help. Please don’t be afraid, the abuser wants the victim to stay silent. They are powerless without the fear, the terror; they are simply a big fat coward as*h*le.

Be well,

Karin Sabrina