Accepting What Is-- is my August focus word. It sounds passive, doesn’t it?Acceptance. Like surrendering the sword and sitting down. Like saying, “I give up.”But this month, I’ve been learning…it's not giving up.It’s giving in—to life, as it is.I chose “accepting what is” as my anchor word, not because I’m a spiritual person floating in … Continue reading Amor fati
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The news
Today, I was handed a piece of news.Not good news. Not a bad one either. Just… news.My husband didn’t get the job. He will remain jobless for an uncertain amount of time. The kind of reality that used to stir anxiety, trigger spirals, shake the foundation.But tonight?Tonight I am calm. Strangely, disarmingly calm.I sat on … Continue reading The news
Uncharted
Dear life, where will we go? I am sending you this question because I feel that you're taking me out of my already "good" life into somewhere unknown. Did you just say I have done it many times? // Well ... You have a good point there, but those were wildly different times. I was … Continue reading Uncharted
Five
"Write down five true things about yourself" So this is a journey to re-wired my self, from the one who tends to see the bad, to the one who could see the good of myself. my practice today is to write five good and true things about me, in doing this I need to be … Continue reading Five
Surprise
If today were an emotion, what would it be? Is surprise an emotion? Because what else can I say if yesterday I'm at the point where I really don't know how to pay this and that.. but today, surprise .. surprise...I have enough to cover the bills. Yes, I don't have much at all, and … Continue reading Surprise
Proud
What are you proud of yourself for lately? It's not easy to answer that question... Especially in the time frame of "lately". I'm not proud of myself lately, I am stressed out, I am literally in the mode of: I have no idea what to do with such and such problems. I am wrestling financially, … Continue reading Proud
Chapters
How are you my dear? It's been a while, since the last time you chatted with me... I'm good. Okay, I have scrolled too much in the insta-land. It's admittedly easier to do than to think what to write to myself like this afternoon. But hey... I'm here now. It's raining... It's a beautiful time … Continue reading Chapters
Expensive
Name the most expensive personal item you've ever purchased (not your home or car). My sanity, that's the most expensive thing I own. Almost a decade ago, I need to pay a hell of money to the cunning and greedy lawyer just to settle my divorce. I have to pay a lot of staycation when … Continue reading Expensive
Present
It's good to be here, and boy... What a long time to realize that. True, there is so much to experience in life and I'm happy to be alive. Life is hard and I found out that I have no control toward everything outside myself. Even to control my own mind is similar to hard … Continue reading Present
Promises
Some times at the start of 2024, I made a promise to myself, that I won't buy new clothes, I won't buy eau de parfum and I won't book for any travel until I get rid of my debts. I punished myself by doing so and my logic at that time is: this will remind … Continue reading Promises
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