May I get through this ... I must admit, I'm tired, and this tiredness can't be cured with 8 hours sleep. I must admit, I am in awe with all of the unfairness that I must go through, silently, because I'm a woman. No support after a divorce, a bloody expensive fee to the money-hungry … Continue reading Admit
Conversation
What is one question you hate to be asked? Explain. So... What's up? What activities are you up to now? For me it's equal to... So.... I heard you work with minimum wage... Is that correct? Tell me about it, then 3 minutes later I'll tell you about how perfect my life is. No offense … Continue reading Conversation
Guests
Rumi said, if this life is a guest house, we should treat each guest honorably ; even though they often come unexpectedly, uninvited -most of the time. Tonight I'm going to send invitations, for peace, for calm, hope and a chance. Please come to my life.... For the last two weeks I haven't been at … Continue reading Guests
Practice
Prioritize the present instead of the past or the future.... To type that, is hard... To practice it ... Almost unimaginable.... How? With my hyperactive monkey mind.... To be calm and present for more than 15 seconds; it seems unattainable. But then again... All good things, all major achievements in life once appeared as unattainable … Continue reading Practice
Downgrade
I am downgrading my lifestyle... Not because I'm having a minimalist hype, not at all... I'm downgrading because I have to. I have no other option. A massive debt is still staring at me... It's been eight years now... I did everything that I can do... But it seems every attempt to crush this debt, … Continue reading Downgrade
Home
Write about your dream home. Currently, I'm living in my dream home... No.. it's not like I am living in a beautiful wooden two storey house in a small village on an island called Samosir in the middle of lake Toba, and I wake up every day with a majestic view, fresh cool air and … Continue reading Home
Faceless
Today is the day where I basically do a minimum function to live my life. I woke up, totally not interested in this new day, went to a doctor's clinic, went to work, said hi to everyone; yes, cheerfully!, but I'm dead inside. After work, I went to do some groceries, try to think about … Continue reading Faceless
Light
Dear light within, I know you're there, please come nearer, hold me, pat my back gently, kiss my forehead and say "all is well kid... All is well indeed... I'm tired, I know I must get going, but to where, how?, all the doors seem tightly shut. Dear light within, Touch my face when I … Continue reading Light
Ugly
I just finished a book, cloud cuckoo land by Anthony Doerr, a long unable to stop reading kind of book. I'm too drowsy to write about the book, but I'll tell you what I really like about the book. Ugliness is also part of the beauty... Many times I dream about life free of problems, … Continue reading Ugly
Relief
There's a short rain today, the first time I see rain in this place. Rain is just rain, they are all the same ... No? Well... No... I honestly believe that rain is a zillion different droplets... All have different purposes... I always love rain, to me it brings hope, a promise of growth and … Continue reading Relief
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