I spend so much energy polishing my live for the eyes of others. The heaviest part of filing a divorce paper isn’t the court process—it’s the whisper in my head: *what will people say about me?* As if people weren’t already wrestling with their own private storms.It’s not only about divorce. It’s in the little … Continue reading Authentic
Stories
Meek
"Blessed are the meek, for they shall inherit the earth."That was the verse I received at my church confirmation, some thirty years ago.I didn’t choose it—it chose me. Or perhaps, it was handed to me by something I wasn’t yet mature enough to understand. I never liked the word meek.It sounded too quiet, too soft, … Continue reading Meek
Lupa
Ini Bukan Pabrik! Ini Sekolah. Bayangkan bekerja 40 jam setiap minggu, tanpa upah, tanpa uang lembur, dan tanpa hak cuti. Bagi orang dewasa, itu terdengar melelahkan—dan bisa langsung viral di media sosial sebagai pelanggaran hak tenaga kerja. Tapi inilah kenyataan yang dialami jutaan anak usia sekolah di Indonesia. Mereka datang pagi, pulang sore. Istirahat? Hanya … Continue reading Lupa
Boundaries
I am not responsible for someone else’s chaos.I am not a fixer, a shield, or a scapegoat.I offer help when it’s welcomed — and step back when it’s not.I can be kind without abandoning myself.I do not owe my energy to dysfunction.I do not make myself smaller for someone else’s control.I am allowed to say … Continue reading Boundaries
Jehangir
What Jehangir Told Me About the Lie of Laziness Simon Reeves of the BBC made me cry last night.No, not directly. He was simply sharing an update from one of his past documentaries. But it hit me in a way I didn't expect. The footage was actually from 2021, though I only stumbled upon the … Continue reading Jehangir
Unfolding
Dear God,Dear Universe,Dear Giver of all unseen things, Thank You.Thank You for hearing my silent pleas, for holding us in the waiting, for orchestrating moments I could not have planned. Thank You for opening this door — not just for a job, but for dignity to return to my husband’s eyes, for air to enter … Continue reading Unfolding
Re-start
Today I’m making a very important decision:I’ll start over whenever I see fit.More often than not, I find myself needing to forgive myself again.I used to think forgiveness was something you do once and it’s done. One clean break with the past. I was wrong.Every inch of growth, every new understanding, requires me to forgive … Continue reading Re-start
Sentimental
I’m feeling sentimental tonight.I read my old notes—dated 2nd January 2017.*Kuda.* A younger me. A girl I envy now.She was at rock bottom.No income. Jobless.Caught in the slow grind of a divorce that stretched like winter.And still—I can feel her joy in the words.A strange, bright kind of hope in her tone.She had nothing, and … Continue reading Sentimental
Evolve
A Letter to the Woman Who Thought One Meditation Might Fix Everything Dear you,The one who thought one meditation might fix everything. I’ve been thinking about you tonight. I read your notes — the ones you wrote back in 2017. I imagine what you were thinking when you enrolled in that online happiness course at … Continue reading Evolve
Far
How lucky I am to have come this far.I don’t know how I made it through—what I did or didn’t do—but I’m here. And maybe that’s the most beautiful part:I’m still here. Still needed. Still wanted.My story isn’t over yet.Life is hard. Mine especially, maybe.But I’ve learned—everyone under the sky is fighting something.We just don’t … Continue reading Far
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