I learned an ancient concept about relationships today. I said ancient because it seems like a very natural way to engage in relationships. It is said that a relationship, in particular with one's spouse is a sadhana; a spiritual practice. We are not having a relationship so we can be happily ever after ( I … Continue reading Sadhana
Love
Choose
I asked my confidant:“Why didn’t I choose this peace a long time ago?” And they answered:“Because you weren’t ready yet.The pain hadn’t finished its teaching.The coal had to burnuntil you knew — with your whole being —that you were done.That’s what we call divine timing.” I asked again:“Is this growth?Or am I simply too tired … Continue reading Choose
Done!
I am lucky today! I have a chance to know that I'm truly done with my chronic anger. If you've been hurt deeply, you will understand this chronic anger. I've been carrying this anger for more than two decades.. I held onto it, and let it pull me into the deep abyss of pain.Two decades … Continue reading Done!
Confidence
My focus word for July is "here and now". It's a mantra to remind me that "here and now" is all I got, it is the only thing that exists. I hope I can walk confidently through the day with my focus word. Yesterday has gone, the future does not exist yet, today is the … Continue reading Confidence
A crack
I repeat, Whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours. It took more than 4 decades for me to understand this verse. After all of hardened resistance to the simplicity of what is, and the endless regrets, fear and bottomless anxiety, I finally crack. And thank … Continue reading A crack
Love day
Small Things
Find three things around you that bring you joy. A neat and clean table and shelves. Books. For the current moment, Eckhart Tolle book, The power of Now. A Guide to Spiritual Enlightenment. Air conditioned-room, it's boiling season here in Medan. 😅 So there's a great joy everytime I enter into a room with an … Continue reading Small Things
Komorebi
I don’t know what shifted.Maybe I’m too tired. Maybe I’ve cried enough. Maybe something inside me just loosened, finally, after holding on for too long.I was driving—nothing particularly special about that. The sky wasn’t extraordinary. The road was the same one I always take. The weight of my worries hadn’t disappeared. My husband is still … Continue reading Komorebi
Color in Flux
A spouse is like a prism—changing shape and color depending on how the light falls,how we look at them,how we feel in the moment we’re looking. I forget where I read that,but it has stayed with me. Because it’s true.I’m never quite the same person in the morning as I am at night.And neither is … Continue reading Color in Flux
The missing lessons
I spent over a decade in school learning how to calculate the slope of a line…But no one ever taught me how to do my taxes. I memorized the periodic table…( with fear along with minuscule understanding about why it matters to know this table).And I had no clue how interest rates worked.Or that debt … Continue reading The missing lessons
