Dear Me, I know how hard it is to keep walking when the path ahead is foggy, when your feet feel heavy with waiting, and your heart aches with quiet wondering. But today, something happened. A dear friend confided in you. He’s been offered a door out. A new job, a better place, maybe even … Continue reading Tiramisu
Life
Exhale (shoo shoo be doo…)
Today, I was triggered.A colleague pushed my buttons and I lost my peace. I tried to keep my composure—I even said yes to some of her absurd requests, all in the name of harmony.I noticed myself.I saw how I tried to let the frustration escape through slow, controlled breaths.I felt how I held my tongue, … Continue reading Exhale (shoo shoo be doo…)
Sadhana
I learned an ancient concept about relationships today. I said ancient because it seems like a very natural way to engage in relationships. It is said that a relationship, in particular with one's spouse is a sadhana; a spiritual practice. We are not having a relationship so we can be happily ever after ( I … Continue reading Sadhana
Choose
I asked my confidant:“Why didn’t I choose this peace a long time ago?” And they answered:“Because you weren’t ready yet.The pain hadn’t finished its teaching.The coal had to burnuntil you knew — with your whole being —that you were done.That’s what we call divine timing.” I asked again:“Is this growth?Or am I simply too tired … Continue reading Choose
Done!
I am lucky today! I have a chance to know that I'm truly done with my chronic anger. If you've been hurt deeply, you will understand this chronic anger. I've been carrying this anger for more than two decades.. I held onto it, and let it pull me into the deep abyss of pain.Two decades … Continue reading Done!
Protest
I have a strong tendency to avoid the negative chit chat in the office, you know when your friends talk about everything that goes wrong in the management, in the country, in the world? I don't want to engage with that kind of conversation. I don't want to ruin my inner peace, and yes I … Continue reading Protest
Unusual
Today is not an usual day. Well perhaps... An usual day does not exist. I hold on to my focus word throughout the day: when I am anxious about the grim possibilities in the future, I remind myself; here and now. When I feel upset about something that happened in the distant past, I said … Continue reading Unusual
Grief
Dear Mighty Silence,These past two, three days—I have done nothing but cry. A dear colleague has left with you, so suddenly, so cruelly. A cardiac arrest, they said. He left behind a devastated wife, a daughter too stunned to speak, and a 14-year-old boy who seems to be turning into a man overnight.I know sudden … Continue reading Grief
Stars
Fly high dearest pak Samosir,You will be deeply missed.Shine your light, We will see you amongst the brightest starsSefti.
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