I used to worry whenever my life seemed quiet. I keep looking at far away, to check whether a storm is coming to my life. Not because I'm only happy when it rains... (Don't read it .. sing it! 😁😁) but because I'm so used with it. So when it is calm and sunny, I … Continue reading Quiet
Author: karin.sabrina.sinambela
Dreamful
Now I get it, the saying goes: you can do anything but you can't do everything. Most of the time, I want to do everything, I want to be everything for everyone, no wonder I disappoint all the time. I used to have this many 'want(s)'; I want to be a good mother, I want … Continue reading Dreamful
Strength
Last week, I had my very first trail run, 25k. This pic was taken around 12-ish kilometers and I was still smiley and full of confidence. About an hour later, I was lost in the middle of the mount leuser jungle, and I was crawling up and down the steepest hill and slope, holding roots … Continue reading Strength
Curiosity
I'm having that "curiosity kill the cat" moment. I'm curious about something or someone but then I also know if I look up for them, I will re-open the old chapter, I will cause unnecessary pain upon my mind and my heart. My heart surely tells me that these toxic people are still ... Toxic … Continue reading Curiosity
Unapologetic
One day I was just so fed up with every negative thought in my own head, so I just said: I'm done okay... I'm done worrying about everything at any given time. I am not doing this anymore. So what if I have a lot of debts? So what if I failed my first marriage, … Continue reading Unapologetic
Today
Hello Ms Ashworth, You have no idea of who I am but I could confirm that you saved me many times... In a weird logarithmic way... Every time I felt the day was dark, your poem somehow found me, and when I read it, it seemed like you spoke to me directly about whatever problem … Continue reading Today
Value
Do you know about the endowment effect? I just heard this term from a blogger/ YouTuber (?) named Gabe. So the endowment effect is happening when we put higher value to the things that we already own than to the things that we don't own. I like this idea, because I usually have the reverse … Continue reading Value
Room
Yep, I'm building a bigger room for me. A spacious room for forgiveness, I forgive myself for all the decisions that felt so utterly wrong. Of course I feel the grief, but that's because I'm human, and there's nothing wrong with being hurt and disappointed.. but I am no longer a victim of anyone's wrong … Continue reading Room
The answer
Have you ever heard a story about Salvador Dali who is looking for inspiration in his sleep; he'll take a nap while holding a series of keys so at the verge of his dream, the keys will fall from his hand and wake him up. By this way, he'll still remember his dream and paint … Continue reading The answer
Calmness
A rare thing happens this morning. I feel calm..Not really worried about life,I'm not sure why.. Maybe because I've stopped checking that person I dislike on Meta (I did it last time probably 4 months ago!). Or perhaps because I've stopped waiting for a resolution of those awful things in the distant past; I've found … Continue reading Calmness
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