It’s a relief to find out that actually everyone around me is just as confused as I am about getting through this muddy water of life. It was an eye-opener when I found out that even my parents too don’t have any clear descriptive map for navigating their lives. They are confused, they have their own unresolved traumas, and they fear and worry about so many things just like I do.

I will let them be just the way they are. My mother will not change, my daughters may not change, and all of my family members may not change to be the person I deserve, and that’s okay. They have gone through a lot of things themselves and probably they too have many unseen scars that I know nothing about. I will let them be.. They are trying their best, as we all do.

I had many privileges growing up, and sure, being raised by a single mother who must work hard to cover every bills also brought a lot of attention deficiency which may be the cause of my adult life troubles. But I know now that it’s me who is responsible to make decisions regarding my own life. I am not that kid anymore, I can make my own decisions regarding the kind of life I want to live. I am healing, and the conduct of acceptance and forgiveness will make this journey worthwhile.

Cheers,

K Sabrina