Today is the day where I basically do a minimum function to live my life. I woke up, totally not interested in this new day, went to a doctor’s clinic, went to work, said hi to everyone; yes, cheerfully!, but I’m dead inside. After work, I went to do some groceries, try to think about something good, count my blessings, but the “sombre” mood is too dark to banish.

I understand now that sadness, a broken heart has no particular face, to others I look exactly the same, the cheerful staff, the one who laughs with ease, while actually inside I’m crying my eyes out, screaming I don’t know what to do about such and such problem… I need help. Please… Help…

To write this, is an effort to pump the sadness out of my lungs, and remind myself to be kind… No one knows I’m facing my demon today, as I will never know who’s facing him or hers everyday, because everyone is looking exactly the same, happy, sad, broken, strong, peaceful or lonely….

Welcome sadness, welcome fear.... Have a seat, but please don't be my guest for too long since I have a lot of work to do... 

Karin Sabrina